Today is a new day....

Yesterday was a drag for me, but today is a new day and there is nowhere etched in stone that says that today has to be the same. So today is way better. I am a little worried about my baby boy. It seems that he won't be the type of baby or boy that you can just spank and he will listen. He is a rough little one. He will cry for like 2.576 seconds and then he will just go back to doing what you originally spanked him for. I don't know whats up with my baby boy. The more I hit, the more he hits. I have to teach him otherwise. He is going to be the type of kid that needs to be put on punishment and to be spoken to. He is my first and only born, and he has my heart in a way that is hard to express in words. I want to teach him well. AAAAAH My baby boy... this is gonna be a tough one :) :(

Back to Hair...

So, my hair is about 3 inches all over (stretched). I most definitely helped myself to my sister's ruler and measured. So as of right now, my hair is 3 inches long. I am hated by some for cutting my hair but, heeeey like I said, they'll get over it. They can buy their own Kleenex because i ain't supplying. We have some mad people, and many supportive, so the supportive to mad ratio is like 12:1. That's good enough for me. So I noticed, that I have been pampering myself more... Taking care of my skin, wanting my nails done more often, wearing unnecessary makeup (Mary Kay all the way... well almost) dammit i feel like I look my age now!!! LOL I get IDed a bit less and people think I'm at least 20 something (which I am) rather than 14. That gets a bit annoying after awhile. This mail lady refused to let me sign for certified mail (i think it was ) because she thought I was 14. When I told her my real age, she was floored. Why floored though? Sheesh. AAAAAnywho... i used the Lekair's cholesterol and my hair feels soooo good. I left it on for the night and washed it out in the morning. It usually doesn't work out well, but it did with my natural hair. I am coming to find that products that my natural hair likes, my permed hair HATED. My natural hair is way cheaper to maintain as well (as far as products go). I use V05 and Suave for my Wash and Go's and Lekair's for my deep conditioning. Infusium 21 Leave In is what I also use as well sometimes after my cheapie conditioner Wash n Go's. Anyway, thats all for now, Im tired.

So today....

My son crapped ALL over me before I went to work. Yea ALL over my work pants. I guess he had a tummy ache hence, his crankiness. Yea then after that he started laughing at me, so yea... that was ummm.... embarrassing... yea. It wasn't regular crap... no... I think he vomited and it just came out the wrong way. Sorry for the graphic visuals, I just thought i'd share. Can you say d-sgusting? lol This is all apart of the mommy growing pains. Boy do I have an embarrassing story to tell him when he gets older! *insert evil mommy laugh here* But I am really worried because, he will not eat. he will drink and drink and drink... Eat fruit and chicken, but thats as far as his appetite goes without me having to MAKE him eat. So i was a little suprised at what came out. But anywho... Poor baby. I just hope he doesn't have another accident like that in school. Someone else will have the privilege of being embarrassed. I'll hear the story later. Stay tuned...

Ramble Ramble Ramble...

This new haircut has me in a new state of mind. I am appreciating myself much more than before. Instead of the constant self criticsms, I give myself more slack. This comfort zone... I am trying to completely break free from... It requires effort on my part. What am I so afraid of? I Read this book called "Change your Thinking Change Your Life" by Brian Tracy. Its is a very empowering book. I recommend it to ANYONE. As I was reading, I just felt a surge of energy rush through me. I felt like my eyes were open wider than before. Its a WONDERFUL feeling. I'll carry it around with me for inspiration when I need it. I want to give it to my mother because she has been feeling really down lately, and ironically she recommended the book to me. I think she needs to tap on her inspirational resources again. I'll give it to her.