I choose me...

At the end of the day, no one will love me the way that I do. I choose me. This great mass of potential being overshadowed with doubt, negativity and fear... No More... No More.... No more will I be bound by the all or nothing expectations of others... This exhaustion slowly taking away from my true essence... the reality of my true self til my self is no longer mine... No longer true... I lost it.... but have reclaimed that once luminous soul.... looked within and caught a glimpse of a glow... just need the oxygen to make this flame grow... Im opening the door needing to feel a breeze... a breath of air... leave the door open... step outside and stand there long enough to realize there's a whole new world out there... Explore me... Explore Life... til that glow gets stronger.... turning into fire... Touchable... Breakable... No Longer... 

IM READY..... NO TURNING BACK... FROM NOW ON I CHOOSE NO ONE ELSE..... BUT ME... LETS GET IT!

My sons father's hair

So his hair is coming along nicely... Ive been maintaining them for a year now... They're growing nicely... This time around I used Fantasia Sparklelites Gel and Mango Lime Sproil for the scalp and dreads... His hair is locking (took awhile to), and he has had these in for a year so far. I love it to death and sometimes I wanna have sex with his hair when I look at it.... lmao Ooooh yeah!!!!! Luv it.

Heres a quick update

This is October 2008

January 2009

Twists with Shea Butter ( New Staple) I rocked this for about 4 days. I also trimmed my hair in the same day.

This is a twistout fro, I rocked this for like a week moisturizing with Cantu Shea Butter.

My hair so far is making great progress and Im extremely happy. I'll post my regimen in another post.

Holosync, Bare Minerals, and a Camera!

So, trying to figure out what I was going to write about in my blog today, there were two things that came to my surprise. One was that the Holosync Demo had arrived in the mail (Yes!) AND the other other was Bare Minerals that my mom got for me from Sephora. Talk about excitement! Well, for me anyways. She realized how serious I am gonna be taking this when I graduate, so she gave me a lil jump start. Lawwwd today I was indulging my brain in makeup. Schools, forums, websites etc,. I came across a few websites that were pretty informative about the business aspect and reality of becoming a makeup artist. So I have a small idea of what to expect before things happen. I also came across an online course thats pretty affordable. So just making preparations you know?? But anywho! Im gonna listen to that Holosync CD later on tonight when I can actually relax, and then, give my input about it. SOOOOO I tried the Bare Minerals. I looked at the video, then I applied. Afterward I thought, this is a load of CRAP because I dont see a difference. But I did some before and after photos and the proof is in the picture REALLY. Check it out. The first one is before, and the second one is after. I swear I only used a TAD bit of each like they do in the DVD. My skin looks WAY more even and natural.  2 thumbs up for me! It works beautifully. My sister has a camera now, another surprise! So hair updates are on the way!

Dedication to Make up

Ok, so I first and foremost would like to thank Erin at Scandalous Beauty. With all the flip flopping that I have been doing with what I would like to do with my life, I finally came to the conclusion that I really want to pursue. I already said it, but now its more concrete. Im gonna get a job in accounting and go to cosmetology school for hair and makeup. Im gonna do it on the side and perfect my craft and see where it takes me. As far as hair, Im interested in styles yes, but more so maintaing the health of hair whether its relaxed or natural. So I have that business idea in mind, but, I'll brainstorm and let things marinate and present it here at a later date. I'll also be working with my best friend who started her fashion line called Popcorn Label Inc. She's definitely doing big things and I am absolutely proud. So, heres to goals, dreams and inspiration! 

-Nubian

So meditation is on the menu for this year

Ive been doing some research on some meditation and hypnosis. I want the best of the best. So I came across a new technology called Holosync. Holosync is a technology developed by Centerpointe Research Institute that is used to create certain sounds called binaural beats that trigger different brain waves such as the Alpha, Beta, Delta and Theta Brain waves. This way of meditation digs deep into the brain and can reprogram where it can have long term results. It gets to the root of the issue and you begin to confront past childhood issues that may hold you back from living life. This is a terrible explanation for it, but you can Google it if you would like more info. I have not heard a bad review about it except for when you are coping with these issues. Some have reported that they go into bouts of depression for a bit. But each section takes a long time to get through. One guy was on part two and he had been doing it for a year and some change. When i found this I thought hey perfect because I want the best out there..... its pricey though..... 2500 in total... So then I  found something else that claims to be better than Holosync. Its called Life flow Meditation 2.0 It claims to be better, and for much cheaper. there are 10 cds for 47 bucks each. Total of 470 bucks. Now thats some thing I would be willing to invest in. They also give you alot of freebies and a demo. The have a forum that you can chat on, thats where I got my testimonials from... real live people. Those who have tried Holosync say that Lifeflow IS indeed better. They also give you some free meditation mp3's that target individual things that you may want to work on. So, I'll try those free mp3's out on my ipod touch I recently got for Christmas :) But Im gonna commit myself to meditation everyday as soon as I download....I'll even document it on here.

Things Im working on for 09

So for 2009 I have another challenge that I did not mention and its the "Raise your credit score" challenge I have been indulging myself on creditboards.com and also have been reading this book pictured to the left. Its a pretty good book. I read 100 pages within 2 hours. Still have to finish. I have learned so much from each and am of course, still learning. I cant wait to see results. Key things that I have learned are 1. Send out letters of verification to Collection Agencies (High priority accounts) 2. Know what laws protect you as a consumer, and them as creditors 3. Get a secured credit card soon to revive my credit 4. Try to delete some things off of my credit report 5.  Use only 30% of each credit card maximum to show creditors that you are responsible with credit 7. Never pay off collection accounts without negotiating. 8. Self Inquiries do NOT affect your credit score 9. Inquiries from outsiders do affect score 10. Try to reopen closed accounts. So I have alot im working on for this year. Im taking 21 credits my last semester and I hope and pray, I bust things out with just about all A's. I NEED to graduate with a minimum gpa of 3.0. Im still contemplating on grad school, but what i want to do, does not require grad school. After school, Im gonna get a job in accounting and also i want to go to cosmetology school learn how to do hair and makeup, I have dreams of giving people makeovers.... seriously. I would be content with doing that and helping others look their absolute best.... Thats my dream it came to me a little late but thats why I wholeheartedly wanna do. So Im working on it! Thats all for now... Peace!!!!! *the makeover pic is from www.terilynn.com not my own.